To Run

Monday, April 20, 2015



I had the chance to watch and cheer
the runners today.

As we walked up to the marathon,
The last mile of the race,
The tears started to well up.

I didn’t expect to have such an immediate emotional reaction.
But it came.

The sound of crowds cheering and the sight of runners running
brings me back to a race I ran
where crowds cheered me on

A physical marathon I ran
at a time when I was also running an emotional marathon
I didn’t know I could or would finish.

Seeing those runners reminded me of that moment
and reminded me that we are all in a race.

Life is a marathon we are all running.
Something we prepared for
and now find ourselves in the middle of.

And there I was watching this race—entranced by their putting one step in front of the other
and another and another.

I loved them. I loved them for running. I loved them for training and being there and showing up and just running.

I was reminded that no one’s race is the same.

I watched a man throw his arms up to illicit the cheers of others.
Such confidence and energy.

I watched a shivering woman who, in the last mile, was walking, unable to run anymore.
But though she was shaking, there she was, wrapped in an emergency blanket, with a woman in an army uniform, arm around her, walking with her in this last leg of the race.

And it was just beautiful.
Because, as tired and cold and shaking as she was—she was not alone.

None of the runners were alone. They ran next to others and they were cheered on by others.

Every runner passed through hundreds of people
who were cheering them on.

And I thought about life and how
Often we don’t see those people who are cheering us on.

But I felt and was reminded
that there are those who cheer us on—sometimes seen, but more often unseen.

And our role—

is to run.

No More Grumpy, Please!

Monday, January 12, 2015

I heard him whimpering as he turned the corner. His small four-year-old hand reached up to hold the hand of his caretaker, a 20-something-year-old who was taking two small children to the museum for the day.

He whimpered again several times and then choked out these words:

"I'm grumpy and mean...and I don't wanna be grumpy and mean!"

I thought, I hear you kid.

I swear I had said the same words a few weeks earlier when I was visiting my family for the holidays. After reverting back to my worst self (as people sometimes do when they are around people who know them very well), I had become a little bit mean and a little bit grumpy.

Ok maybe more than a little.

So when I heard this boy practically hyperventilating over his mean grumpiness...
I get it. I understand grumpy.

I also understand not wanting to be grumpy.
And not wanting to be a lot of other things that somehow I slide into at times.

And there, in that gallery, I thought of all the new year's resolutions and goals I had for myself.
And how I wasn't quite there on so many levels.

We, as human beings, want to be better than we are.
But we reach that point where we just feel...less than what we want to be.

And this little boy expressed all that sentiment as he mustered up his cry to the world about his mean grumpiness.

A few seconds after his forlorn cry, his caretaker said these words to him which I strangely felt were for my own sake as well as his:

"Ok, take a deep breath..."

So I did.
And he did too.

Kid, we are gonna make it!

Change

Sunday, January 4, 2015

I love a new year.
I love the idea that things will be different from one year to the next.
They always are in some way.
Sometimes in big ways and sometimes in small ways.

Dark nights turn into brilliantly lit mornings
and long days settle into deep and vibrant sunsets.
Caterpillars become butterflies
and old leaves fall and new buds grow.

Perhaps the most exciting change is what happens inside of us.
People really can and do change.
I've seen it in others and I've felt it in myself.
People change and grow and learn
and live and love
more.

More than ever before if they choose.
Which is really the sum of my new year's resolutions.
To live and love more deeply
than I did this past year.

To keep changing for the better.
To welcome the changes that come.
Because they will and they do.

Here's to change.

Come to the Edge!

Sunday, August 31, 2014




















I read this poem for the first time five years ago.
I was in a new country
speaking a foreign language
and terrified.

In the years that preceded that event and the years that have followed
I have found myself again and again
invited
nudged
and sometimes thrust
to the edge.

The edge of
comfort
understanding
and ability.

Now
at this point in my life I find myself simultaneously
coming to the edge
being pushed
and flying.

And the view is amazing.

Welcome to my blog. The title refers to this poem. You'll notice a difference from the last line. Logue says "and they flew." I added the then, a simple adverb, that represents the impetus of our decision.

Then has two meanings:
at that time in question
and
after that.

That is where we find ourselves.
At the moment in question
that critical moment
where we decide.

Come to the edge.
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