So here I am! Six months down, and on to eternity.
One of the best moments of the last six months was when I told Sean, "I really love being married to you!" He responded with, "I knew you would! That's why I was trying to get you to do it for so long!"
Getting married wasn't an easy decision for me. I was on a roll in my life. When I started dating my husband I was enrolled in my dream master's program at Harvard and had a lot of momentum going in my life.
Dating up to that point had felt like just a lot of grief--both the kind that grief that aches at your soul and the kind that makes you say, "good grief, how did I possibly get involved in this?!"
And of course, being a maximizer (er...recovering maximizer), I wanted to make the VERY best decision, consider ALL my options, and...you get the picture.
And although I was feeling awesome about life and very emotionally independent, I was a bit terrified of marriage. What if it didn't meet expectations? What if the person I chose didn't end up to be who I thought they were? And the scariest question...what if I'm not able to live up to my potential by choosing this person?
This is the thing though.
I made that decision. I made it. I chose Sean.
And it's been the absolute best decision of my life.
Because of that decision I'm learning so much. I'm learning what it means to put two separate lives together and what it means to become one. I'm learning that putting your feet in the same direction and walking toward a destination together is much better than the moving back and forth and all around that comes from dating. I'm learning there is power in unity. Not the kind of unity that comes from sameness, but power in a unity that supports two individual people with their own ideas and personalities--coming together and working together. I'm learning that I, as a woman, have a lot of differences in the way I see things and experience things than my husband, a man. I'm learning that those differences are there to refine both of us into something much better than we could be on our own. I'm learning that life with him is better than any life I could have had on my own.
I am SO glad I chose this. I would choose it again and again.
